I still don't really have time to write anything substantial. Working two jobs, plus some illness lately, plus a lot going on in the game has meant putting the blog to one side for a bit. Also, honestly, I don't really have much to write about at the moment because I simply haven't had a chance to stop and think about my character or general happenings in the game. I've basically been going through the raiding motions for the last few weeks and haven't even had a chance to stop and check out the new stuff.
I'm not a big fan of constantly regurgitating WoWInsider or MMO material - I do it sometimes for the big stuff, but I never intended my blog to just be another news snippet portal. I want to *write*. Part Time Druid's article on blogging is spookily-timed, sometimes I think a few of you druids are nosing around in my head.
The point is - I don't really like the idea of posting for the sake of posting. I could easily throw down some snippets from MMO etc, to make it look like I'm being active and whatnot, but the fact is that plenty of other people do that, there's not really any need for me to, and if I do it too often I start to feel like a cheater.
Add to that the fact that I could be posting these news items, but I don't have time to sit and discuss my thoughts at the moment. Take the legendary mace for example - obviously a hot topic.. but I don't have time to put my thoughts down about it. And even if I did, I'm not sure I would want to since I'm lagging behind everyone and everything has probably already been said. I don't really want to be rehashing other people's ideas.
I'm certainly not criticising those of you who are reporting back with your thoughts on items and changes.. I just don't like looking as though I am piggy-backing.
So until I can relax a bit and find some time to come up with some of my own content, I'm not happy just reposting blues etc. I don't mind posting on hot/shared topics, but I need to feel that what I am writing is valued and fairly original, otherwise I feel like I am doing myself a disservice.
A quick update
But I will give a brief update on what has been going on for me in the last few weeks:
Yogg Saron is cool.
Still working on Yogg-Saron. Awesome fight; kinda annoying that we need to take fewer healers though (and even then those healers need to spend time DPSing). We are pretty much neck-and-neck with our nearest rival guild; I think they may take the server first tonight if we aren't able to get back in there. That will make me a very sad panda, considering all the problems we've had in the last week or two.. but they have been working hard this last week. It has been a good race. I just don't like being second ;)
The guild is bouncing back from the AMGDRAMA of our MT/Raid Leader having a progression meltdown and transferring in the middle of the night. Another officer took the opportunity to leave at the same time, shaving us down to 4 officers, which doesn't sit well with me at the moment - I prefer around 6.
We lost a few people to RL stuff, a few jumped ship because they felt the grass was greener in another guild that was 2 weeks/1 boss ahead of us, and we lost a few people to a mix: those who claimed RL issues but really just wanted to leave to go to a "better" guild. Poor form kids - it's not hard to find you, and it just makes you look like your pants are on fire. I expected better... but what can you do. I don't understand why people feel the need to cover up their intentions and reasons. I've been in a situation where I couldn't raid according to my standards and my goals, and it's horrible. If people really want to go, I can empathise. I just don't understand why you would lie about it - it just makes things even more unpleasant.
If you're really unhappy and you feel that moving on is the only solution, just say so. Just say you want to go to a more progressed guild. Don't look me in the eye and tell me you're failing school and giving your account away to someone or your car exploded so you can't afford to play anymore, and then let me notice you back and playing in another guild on another server under another name. We're not idiots, you just make yourself look bad doing that. Man up, say you're not content and that you need to move on. There'll probably be a little bit of annoyance, but a whole lot less than if you spin some ridiculous lie and then get found out later.
I think a few people should read Matticus' articles on drama and gquitting. Call me crazy old-fashioned, but I think that after you play in a guild for a period of time, it would be nice to do the "right thing" by your team and actually talk to someone. Failing that, at least don't lie when you leave.
It would actually be nice to STAY FRIENDS instead of you burning your bridges on the way out.
On a nicer note - we gained a few people, which is very exciting. I like new faces. Really looking forward to getting to know everyone better.
Why I'm tired
I spent a few days mashing together a new guild website after ours was taken down; another reason why I have had so little time to blog! It was important to get a site up ASAP to make sure we could advertise and also just to have a web presence. I'm so excited about controlling our website; previously it was not updated frequently, and I think it looked more like an online brochure rather than something that showed us as an active, progressive guild. Now that I am in control, I can update it as often as I like, and that makes me extremely happy. I'm weird.
Our ravaged guild bank went from 10k to 30k within a few days, meaning I could turn guild bank repairs on for everyone while we are learning Yogg. I've spent a lot of time this week taking out my frustrations through fishing, farming and playing the AH for the guild bank - it has made me very happy to see it back up to a healthy level. Plus, a very generous ex-guildmate quit the game and sent us 6500g - /wave Amarant! :)
We may not get the server first Yogg kill, which will be very disappointing. But boy did we go through a lot to keep raiding... so any disappointment will likely be short lived - I'm just glad we're still here. We've been poached, robbed, mocked, lied to, let down and generally knocked around, but we're still going, and I'm so proud. Everyone could have thrown their hands in the air and said it was too hard to continue - but we're still raiding and progressing, and it feels great.
Loot is a non-issue for me at the moment. Often we will kill a boss and I forget they have loot (good thing the badges are distributed automatically now, or I would have missed a lot). I'm more interested in the kills. Obviously I want to get my hands on the T8 4pc bonus ASAP, but otherwise I have a very relaxed "if loot lands in my lap, cool" attitude. I never look at my DKP, I just don't care.
So far I have picked up the T8 chest, those nice bracers, and a ring.
I also have 3 Fragments of Val'anyr in the bank :)
This recent "unpleasantness" has kinda thrust me more into a GM/leadership role than I had previously cared to perform. I can lead; I just prefer to be the quiet achiever who does stuff for the guild in the background.
The other officers are great, and we have a great new raid leader, too, which is a relief because I'm not a raid leader. I'm a one-trick pony :P
I'm not sure how this will impact on my game or blog, though. Obviously things are more chaotic than normal at the moment, but I don't know how much extra time I will need to devote to the guild (over and above what I was already doing). I worry that I'm not actually getting any time to play other than for a couple of hours on the weekend - most of the rest of my time is taken up doing officery things.
Things are still a bit up in the air at the moment, but I am very wary of burnout. I don't want to let my guild down while we are going through some changes (plus I have 3 legendary shards, and that puts a certain amount of pressure on a person to stick around and not explode!). I hope that things will settle enough that I will be able to keep enjoying my druid - with the flow-on effect being that I am able to keep blogging about enjoying my druid.
Hopefully I'll be able to get back into writing (in my spare time, not at work, this is so naughty) soon. I still owe you guys a final Healbot writeup, after all.